Today is just the first step.
Posted on Apr 18th, 2008
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My boyfriend of almost two years and I just broke up yesterday. It's been going down hill for awhile now. We've slowly drifted apart. I'm honestly perfectly fine not being with him until I sit at night and think about how he'd normally call to say good night. It's going to be hard to live without for awhile. I am just so used to him always being there, but I know this is for the best. Everything happens for a reason, this reason is just unknown to me as of now.
I have to look on the bright side and realize how much I am able to take away from my experiences with him in my life. He tought me a new way to love and live. He has shown me that not all the little things should matter as much as I let them. He's taught me to let somethings go while still holding on to them in my heart. And right now, that's what I'm doing. I'll always love him. He was my first, true love. And it was amazing. Dustin is a great guy and he'll find someone that will be perfect for him. As I will find someone that is meant for me. It will just take some time, some tears, and a lot of talks with my mother and friends. I'll always love him, truly and deeply.
But today is the first step of a new life. I am going to do so many things I haven't been able to do because I've spent so much time revolving my life around him. I'm not sure, just yet, what those things will be, but I know I will have fun no matter what it is.
I want to take part in making my community a better place for children to grow up. I am straight edge and I take pride in it. I want to teach others about the dangers of alcohol, drugs, smoking, and promiscuity. I'm not sure how to go about it, but I just have to find that first step. Maybe just by blogging and getting my voice and opinions out there, someone will want to listen, learn more, and even promise themselves that they will abstain from such harmful poisons.
Either way, today is a new day. Tomorrow will be good. It's supposed to be nice. :)
I have to look on the bright side and realize how much I am able to take away from my experiences with him in my life. He tought me a new way to love and live. He has shown me that not all the little things should matter as much as I let them. He's taught me to let somethings go while still holding on to them in my heart. And right now, that's what I'm doing. I'll always love him. He was my first, true love. And it was amazing. Dustin is a great guy and he'll find someone that will be perfect for him. As I will find someone that is meant for me. It will just take some time, some tears, and a lot of talks with my mother and friends. I'll always love him, truly and deeply.
But today is the first step of a new life. I am going to do so many things I haven't been able to do because I've spent so much time revolving my life around him. I'm not sure, just yet, what those things will be, but I know I will have fun no matter what it is.
I want to take part in making my community a better place for children to grow up. I am straight edge and I take pride in it. I want to teach others about the dangers of alcohol, drugs, smoking, and promiscuity. I'm not sure how to go about it, but I just have to find that first step. Maybe just by blogging and getting my voice and opinions out there, someone will want to listen, learn more, and even promise themselves that they will abstain from such harmful poisons.
Either way, today is a new day. Tomorrow will be good. It's supposed to be nice. :)
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broke up
May 2008 
I had a similar experience. My boyfriend of two and a half years and I broke up in early December. It wasn't until I had been dating someone else from a month and a half that I realized, and week before Valentines day, that I didn't love this new, I couldn't and I never would, because I still love my ex. It's now……two months? later, and it's gotten twice as worse as the previous day, every single day, untill now, when I feel more anger than grief. ( He's going out with some fat ugly gross butch chick, and won't take me back over HER, when I could pass for a high fashion model. phft. That makes me so ANGRY. Grr. ) But now, I guess it's for the better b/c he was a bum, and I'm moving to Nashville after I graduate high school in May. And I hope it doesn't get worse for you, like it did for me, but if it does….Call him….Plead with him…..Beg him on your knees to take you back. You may look like an idiot and feeling incredibly stupid, but if it saves you heart ache….it's well worth it. Of course, I hope that's not the case with you. I hope that in time, not immediately, to let “the wound heal”, that you find someone better, and are twice as happy. Bon Chance. <3